“Sarah can you come?” I could hardly get the words out of my mouth. It was nearing the end of camp and I could feel my body, mind, and emotions giving out! It was an amazing summer working behind the scenes to help orphans… but I felt at that moment as if Satan’s hot breath that had continually been breathing down my neck was going to win… It felt like there was no relief from the constant pressure inside me to hold myself together for my team, the kids, and volunteers. I was struggling with so many things…But the biggest thing was the voice inside my heart telling me not to leave China when I so wanted to….I struggled with this decision during one of the most stressful summers I have ever had! Later that night as I set in a chair across from my sister with tears streaming down my face she spoke words straight from God to me…she said “Anna, I was pr. for something to say to you, something from God and I feel like He wants me to say “Open Wide your Mouth and I will Fill It” (Psalm 81:10). Those words comforted me and gave me the strength to make the decision to remain in China when I had planned to leave. All through the rest of camp I thought about those words… “God it is only you who can fill it, can fill me! If you want me to die in China and never return to America…I will, I will trust you…I must trust you.” It was the deepest level of surrender I have ever experienced …it was a level in my heart that I could never bring myself to apart from God…it was a level that had been so broken there was nothing left in it except the desire to place all hope in who God is and what His word promises…and in that decision I felt faithless and extremely exhausted. After camp I went home for a short furlough and returned to China about a month later. A few weeks later Wonderful Noah came into my life and my co-worker made a decision to believe and give her life to J.! Last Sunday I was sitting in ch during worship and I opened my B. during singing…my eyes filled with tears as the words “Open Wide Your Mouth and I will fill it…” leaped off the page. For the greatest adventure God is teaching me in China is the adventure of what happens when I KNOW, BELIEVE, and UNDERSTAND I have a relationship with the Living God… and He loves me! “…He Restores my Soul!” (Psalm 23:2)