Anna Updates

  I was thinking about all the times in  my life G. has spared me from huge mistakes through the authority of walls.  The term wall is usually used in a negative sense.   For example, I put up walls when I have been hurt and don’t want to let others in. Also, when I think about strongholds (2 Cor.10:3-4) I think about walls in a negative way as things to be torn town in our lives.  But, walls can also be good in the sense that they can represent G.’s authority. I learned the best diagram in my study this week explaining walls… Inside the wall of G.’s authority and what we call commandments is my Temple, which 1 Cor. 6:19 says is my body, or the life of a believer.  Inside the temple dwells the Holy Spirit (Romans 8:9) that according to Ephesians 1:13 seals us until the day of redemption!  Outside of the possession  wall is opposition from the enemy, and no matter how strong that opposition my feel or be it cannot get into the wall, because I am sealed with the Holy Spirit.  Last night as I was thinking about this diagram and how for some reason throughout college and life, although I believed G’s way was satisfying and best, a part of me always wondered if G. was somehow holding out on me.  As my friends got married and I didn’t, as I struggled with insecurity and depression, and feeling like I didn’t fit in with Christians, or anyone for that matter, in the back of my mind was the whisper… “Maybe G. is holing out on you”  “It’s ok to be selfish, it’s ok to do what’s best for me….people don’t really love me etc.”  Honestly, there were some years in college where I stayed hanging onto C. because I thought everything else seemed pointless and people doing what they wanted weren’t really happy either….G. kept me in the wall through failed relationships, the death of my brother, and my struggle to worship G. for the way He made me…G. kept me in the wall of His authority because He knew the longer I stayed in it the more I would become free…. The more I would see that He is G. the ONE and ONLY.  He kept me in the wall of His authority because He knew if I stayed in it, He would thrill me with His mercy and goodness, and meet my every need in ways I could never imagine!  He kept me in the wall of His authority because He LOVES ME… and I am overwhelmed by this LOVE!