Sometimes I wonder how G. is making all things New. I’m learning to delight in the fact that G.’s ways are so far above my ways and thoughts so far above my thoughts. (Isaiah 55:8 ) It’s pretty sweet that my life is now to trust Him and believe Him in all things. It sounds so simple when I write it like that, but in reality it can be extremely hard to surrender my fake control to G. and trust His sovereignty in all circumstances I find myself in, and in the circumstances others are experiencing. It starts with trusting Him in the small things….like this morning the road that runs between where I live in Beijing had a problem, so my driver took the back roads. It took almost two hours to get to starbucks where my friend was going to meet with me for coffee. The funny thing was that last night she wrote and asked me if we could change our coffee time from 10:00 to 10:30. I left my house at 8:30 am as planned thinking I would have plenty of time and be early to meet my friend, when in fact I would have been late because of the road, had we met at 10:00 am as we originally planned. Now that is trusting G.’s sovereignty on a small scale..that He totally knew what he was doing when my friend changed the time last night. I also saw the results of His sovereignty over that situation very quickly. I thought this morning for a brief moment… “Wow, that was really lucky that she changed the time,” but then I caught myself. I’m convinced how I respond to small situations like that is how I will respond to big situations where G. is asking me to trust Him and praise Him. Like the orphan that never gets adopted and dies of a heart condition. Like the Tsumani wiping out thousands. When I experience rejection from people that know C. or said they loved me, when my visa isn’t working, when my funds are low, when my funds are high, when G. doesn’t heal my little brother when I ask him too and instead he dies…. Will I believe in all things that He is making all things new? That He is always good? What if I get cancer? What if I can’t have children? What if I lose Noah? What if the orphans I really want to see get adopted never do? I don’t know what my feelings will be if those things happen, but I do know that I have resolved in my heart because of His faithfulness… “When the morning comes on the farthest Hill, I will sing His Name, I will praise Him still! When dark trials come and my heart is filled with the weight of doubt, I will praise Him still!” - Fernando Ortega